Post Christmas Lull

The holidays are over and I don't know if I have ever been happier. This year just seemed so chaotic, so not normal, so different so thats why I think I am happy to have them be over. Now back to my hectic life of working and trying to find time to other crap!

15 things I love right now.....

1. The fact that noone reads my blog. I don't have anyone that I have to impress, no expectations to love up to...its just me, my laptop and my thoughts, which in some circumstances can be deadly.
2. I love a lazy day. I was given today off from work and this is literaly all i have done; baked banana nut muffins, unpacked chrismas gifts, cooked dinner, watched TV, yeah and not much more. I haven't had one of these days in a long time and it has brought me peace in my sanity right now. Just what the doctor ordered.
3. I love having a differenet christmas. This year was full on new family members, bringing past loves back to enjoy a dinner, not having it at my mom's house, a night out with friends and simple christmas gifts.
4. I love the fact that I think about my dad each and every day. I know there is so much he would have to say to everyone right now. Im not ready to let him go. I think that is why I haven't drempt of him yet. I don't think Im ready to get rid of that warmth around me, and Im afraid that if I dream of him he won't be there anymore.
5. I love a good cup of coffee, sweet and hits the spot.
6. I love saying goodbye to someone in the morning knowing that it won't be the last time I tell them that.
7. I love hearing compliments that make you smile. No matter what anyone says these are the things that make you move forward each day.
8. I love waking up knowing that you don't have to go to work that day.
9. I love watching a 4 year old talk about Santa and all the joy that it brings to him. He set out cookies, got his presents (that were way too much), and laughed all day long!
10. I love trash reality TV. It makes me appreciate the simple life that I have. I know that i'm guilty of being sucked into the shitty TV people are putting out there, but I can't stop watching it.
11. I love wine...and vodka....and beer.
12. I love friends.
13. I love that I have the capability to grow into a person that I really want to be. I know that I am not there right now, but my time will come. I keep saying that I am in my prime, but I don't think I have even come close.
14. I love late night cuddle sessions.
15. I love a new shirt and even better I love when I don't have to buy it.

Good Night loves!

Lost with no directions

Just when i think i have everything figured out, something comes along and messes it all up. i know that i am strong enought to get through all this, but how strong do i really have to be? i need a change. i need something to change. but what, when, how and why? i have officially decided that i need a manual for life. someone to tell me which direction i am suppose to go, which path to take, which road to travel down. i guess the defenition of life is "the journey to the end". wow...well it has been one hell of a journey thus far. i can say that i have experienced true love, true pain, true hurt and devistation....but my character is the path back to the top. i shall lean on friends, depend on family, love those that love me and remove those from my life that just don't give a fuck about me. im tired of being hurt, im tired of looking stupid, im tired of being defined by someone else. ya know what...I have more right now than you have ever had, i have accomplished more and i'll be damned if you bring me down. go hurt someone else...go bring them down...and in the long run when i hope you come around...i wont be  there to pick your ass up.

Little things I adore......

 “The easiest thing in the world to do is quit on something. Quitting takes zero effort. Quitting can even be justified with excuses and legitimate reasons at times. When someone quits at something they can even lie to themselves by saying that what they quit on wasn’t that important. To those people with that mentality this is what I have to say. If it was important enough to start, it is important enough to finish. Don’t quit. Hold on, cling to what is yours until your fingers cramp; and once your fingers cramp switch hands.”

thoughts of the day.......

I was on a lunch excursion at Target yesterday and picked up a simple braclet on sale that has a small silver quote on it: Love life. I got a compliment on it at spinn class and it really got me thinking that there is always something in life that you can love. Well I love:

- receiving coupons in the mail and actually using them on time to save money
-sweet text messages from a boy you get to see once you turn your phone back on
-cooking at home for me and knowing what I am having for lunch to next day...left overs!
-weekday happy hours with friends
-friends....all of them
-friends that live in far away places so that I have a fabulous excuse to go on a mini vacation to get some bestie time in
-having money in the bank
-shopping and using more than my savings account
-my nieces and newphews
-the new additions to our family...I love all 3 of them
-concerts outdoors with people I adore
-knowing that someone in this world loves me...no matter what
-nights out that I don't pay for
-wearing a new shirt out and getting complimeted on it
-getting my hair done and knowing I don't look homeless anymore
-taking my shoes off from a long hard day of work
-having someone tell me "you work too much"...just determination in my eyes
-having a new friend at work that makes me laugh every day and is someone i can confide in
-boys who make me smile by the smallest gesture
-country music....i have missed you but I am back now
-my apartment....i am happy to come home and am excited about new craft projects
- looking forward to thanksgiving
-thinking about my dad and knowing that he is smiling and is VERY proud of me
- having a great relationship with my little brother
- a nice cold beer right when you need it
- motivation to work out
- readily accessible news so that I don't feel left out of the loop of life

Ugghh there are so many more things that I could list and I'm sure I will again. I know that I love the fact that I can make this vlog as random as I want to and I don't mind it at all. I hope you like it!

Tombstone.....

" I don't have time to be proper...I want to live"......... (Tombstone)

November is for the Birds

I can't believe it is November already. I honestly want to sit in the corner and cry. Alright i'm not depressed but the fact that an entire year has almost passed again and I haven't accomplished anything doesn't make me want to jump up for joy. I guess you can say that I accomplished moving into an apartment on my own, securing and learning a new job, buying a new car, getting over the fact that I had my heart ripped out and smashed to pieces.....besides all of this "greatness" I experienced I still feel lonely and not whole. I honestly think it is because I spent so much of my time strapped to the hip of another person, that waking up in the morning to only face myself IS SCARY AS SHIT! Finding myself is a horrible journey. Its like you want someone to answer these questions:

-Where do I start?
-How long is this going to take?
-Why is this happening at the age of 26?
-Why do I feel like I'll never accomplish anything

Urrgggg..... I know what I have to do...and to be honest I have been doing it, some what. I just want to be 100% happy. I want to wake up in the morning excited about life not thinking about the next time it is that I can sleep...a good long sleep.

It has helped a bit that I have taken on a second job. My social life has been cut down into half of what it was, but onthe other hand I appreciate that it has made me be a stronger, working person. Now if all those young kids would just get the hell out of my way at work I could accomplish so much more. Or just bring me more money....that would certainly put a huge smile on my face. I need sleep, I need reassurance, I need someone to tell me that everything is going to be a-okay. I need a swift kick in the ass...and I am sure that I can easily find that some where.


Too bad work isn't helping right now either

New Motto......or thoughtful hoist

Yeah I stole this....so what....I like it.

A good one.....

Where oh where has my litle blog gone? Oh where , oh where can he be?

Things that have changed since I have checked in:

1. I have another nephew...Donald Perley Childs, Jr. on October 20h. I graced his presence when he was about 30 minutes old and it was love at first sight. I think I might just be his first crush...not in a Redneck/Arkansas kind of way but I at least know he is the love o my life (plus all my other fabulous nieces and nephews I can give back).

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Check me out biotches!

2. I have officially gone back to the dark hole, the dungeon, the place where you realize that you are soo old. Yes boys and girls, that is On the Border. The place where I worked throughout HS and college, the place where I learned to become an alcoholic, the place where I met all my bestfriends and made so many memories. Well im back...not because I really WANT to be, but because everytime I drive by an OLD NAVY it literally screams out my name and beggs me to by something. I have to feed my addiction and my savings account can no longer be my savior. So I work now 60+ hours a week to have a social life and shope more. Sue me, bite me! Eff off losers who wanna make fun of me.

3. I have a tendency to look like this everynow and then when I pout......

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Seriously I will slap you if you don't stop taking my picture

 Okay maybe im not as cute as her. Don't you want to just bite her face off she is so precious! I pout like this right now because I am sad that I don't get to see this gorgeous little gal and her seester everyday.

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Yes, I am a Diva and Princess all in one, it CAN happen

I am very thankful that I have a sister in-law that loves me enough to send me pictures everytime her and my brother get the girsl for the weekend. What has changed, you might ask, is that I get to smother these little faces with kisses during Thanksgiving because they are soming to visit. And that makes me sooooo happy I could poop!

4. I've gone gangsta.....

It's true. I'm straight thug. Thug like I drive a Pontiac G-6 , wear Texas Rangers gear and drink at a pool hall. Thats straight thugging in my book, right?!?

I got 5... thats about it. I know i'm horrible with blogging lately. Between my second job, taking care of my apt, being completely cool, shaving my legs, cleaning, work, acting like I give a shit about certain things, this gal has been a busy bee. I recently decided that I think i want to start running soon. I mean I do pay about $50 a month for a gym mebership I hardly use, so why not make myself feel a bit shittier by forgoing to gym membership and running outdoors. GENIUS!!! I need something that is going to give me a drive, purpose and stress reliever. I thought about beating people up but I've also heard they don;t let you shave your pits in jail....so I weighed my options and running won. Now I have to just figure out how to tie my sneakers and get my ass off the couch. Anybody wanna come over and pull me out of my sunken hole?!?

Sometimes I really just want to blog about completely random shit.Yet again I think if someone, for real, would read my random shit, they might want to commit me. I mean its hard to come up with a blog topic of the dya when in the real world everyone has a tendency to randomly think about crap. So there...tomorrow shall be a random blog. I'm preparing so keep yo mouf shut when you don't like it!

I ate a steak...and I made it all by myself

I think I may have an addiction.....cooking....for one. Today all I could think about at work was coming home, cranking up that ol George Forman (which I like to call my "Man Grill", don't hate) and slapping a steak on it. Not to mention I had some fabulous side dishes if a baked potato and a salad covered in ranch. Doesn't that sound healthy?!? I mean at least it sounds it, but my ass does thank you for the added mass.

I even patted myself on my back for the din-din tonight! Work is finally nice right now. I'm busier than ever, but I have a feeling my coworker is a little taken back that I am kinda catching on quickly on her position. Or maybe that is the emtional scary vibes oozing out of her pregnant self......working with a preggers is differnt but there is a first time for everything. So my motto now is be busier at work, or look busy, or do anything not to be bored. So far I think I am doing a o-tay.

SUM O BITCH HE WAS NOT SAFE!!!!!!!!! (Sudden outburst watching the Texas Rangers try and bring home that World Series trophy). On another note, I hate people who are like "Well look at all those bandwagon fans comng out of nowhere now that the Rangers are in the postseason", Seriously?!? Who gives a shit! I personally have always been a Texas Rangers fan. Just because I don't watch ALL 100+ games through out the entire season, does not mean that I am a bandwagon fan now cheering them on in the playoffs. If you love a team so much, be happy that people have an interest in them and get off your frickin soap box, crap face! I'll cheer for whatever team I want to, in any point of thier season. If you don;t like it, go cheer for the Dolphins, or the Brewins or some other team that sucks.

Revelation came about tonight too. I'm okay being alone. I still have people out there in the world missing me, thinking about me and more. I don't ave to have them right here by my side to be happy.

Paint, Pigskin and Pantry Plenty.......

Ya know...just sitting around at home P'ing it up! I think this weekend is just what the doctor ordered. Friday night had a nice little italian dinner at the resturant my bestfriend works at. It just so happens that she is the only employee there that doesn't speak italian and gives you the "go to hell look". Not welcomed at all sir!!  None the less casual evening. Saturday morning came early at 6 a.m. Oh god why did I wake up that early? I know....because I have a heart and volunteered to do some charity work. Yay...go me. The morning turned out to be something really rewarding. I have never worked on a volunteer project in a group and on homes. Well actually this is my first volunteer project period, and that is just down right wrong. I need to do this more. It warms the soul. The even it called "Adressing Mesquite Day". Over the past few months senior citizens, disabled people and elderly living on a fixed income could apply to be apart of the program and have a group come out to thier house to assist on fixing things outside thier home they are unable to do themselves. I worked with a non profit organization called "Our Seva". It was started by a old worker of the City of Mesquite who lost her parents in a tragic accident and created this organization to better the community in ther honor. We were assigned to an elderly man's home who was also a vietnam veteran. I didn;t have a chance to see the home before all the prep work began days beore, but te end result was amazing! WE managed to completely re-paint the exterior of his home, cut tree limbs, replace tile on the front porch, landscape the front of the home, and other small items. It was great to work with other people in a group for a greater good. It was even more rewarding o leave the home and see the home owner crying because he is so greatful for what he managed to accomplish. Not to brag or anything but I did pat myself on the back when we finished and then kicked my own ass asking "why don't I do this more often"?

I celebrated my day with a few adult beverages, a little Texas Rangers win (come on World Series) and a lot of laughs with two of the most humorous bestfriends a gal could ask for. I even looked lady like..... see:

I know I was a little cocky when I woke up this morning at 6 a.m. and couldn't go back to sleep. Yeah I am convinced that this is my punish for everything bad I did this weekend. I thought I was good too....come on!!!!! I guess its okay thought because I have managed to re-organize my bathroom, buy wood at Home Depot, go grocery shopping and already down 2 beers. All done by 3 p.m. Now its football, more beverages, a litle Real Housewives of New Jersey tonight (Teresa will be crowned the crazy)  and dinner.... Nom, Nom Nom.......

Here's your one chance, Fancy don't let me down

If I was Fancy I would defenitly not want to let myself down right now. Not to mention I wouldnt mind being a firery red head like good ol' Reba. Classic. I recently realized something...in the midst of my drinks (maybe shots) and crying like a baby sitting on the curb in the parking lot of my favorite watering hole, I'm not going to put up with any more bullshit...at all! I'm too good for this..I'm too good to sit around and allow someone to use all my kindness, love and caring to just throw it away. Oh hell no!!! I'm saving that for someone that deserves it. For someone that wants me in thier life for more than just stroking thier ego. I'm done with that shit. I'd rather spend my nights alone on my couch, watching reality cooking shows, dreaming about ice cream and working out. Now thats fun and something that makes me look completely loser-ish. oh god...i will not become the "Cat Lady!" But I also won't be made out to look like a fool.

Tonight was family night. It's nice to retreat back to Mom's house. Get a little laundry done, eat some real food, steal some of the food in her pantry because she is "one of those" who buys enough food to feed an entire army in a month. Thanks Ma! By the way if I had any job in the world I think I would wnant to be a professional chef. I want to make amazing food and have people salivate over it. And then rule the world, one massive plate at a time. Why am I still watching Man vs. Food? I feel like im gaining weight just watching this. Ugghhh...I need to go to bed.

Ya know what is funny......

Everything in life is sooo funny! I mean when you sit back and think about it, having the lack of ability to plan out your days ahead, is funny. How are you suppose to live in the moment if your not even confident enought that your current choices are good ones? Ughh its frustrating and funny all in the same sence. Not funny like I just watched a Chris Rock stand up ....but funny like bizarre....Holy SHIT what am I doing funny. Sometimes I want to be the person that pays a psychic to tell me what I have ahead of me. But honestly, who wants to know when they are going to die or fall in love. Don't cha want this to come naturally? I know I do.........

Alright enough about the weird thoughts for the night. Took a little road trip to Houstin to weekend to see my bestfriend/go to an ahhhmazing concert. Incubus rocked and it rocked my face and the besties face off.

Check out my satchel...its hottness.

Concert was amazing because the band sounded exactly live as they do on thier records. $40.00 well spent. I will have to say I have to get one of my besties away from her fiance. I saw him a whole different light this past weekend and I didn't like it. I couldnt do it....couldn't put up with him. I know bestfriends are suppose to be ther to support you no matter what...and don't get me wrong I'm gonna love her no matter who she loves. But, we need to talk. Seriously! Regardless good weekend of relaxation, beer, Kill Bill movies, ultimate food, laxy bum moves, driving jamming to music, $10 pizzas and much, much more. I'd tell you all about it but I want to bury my face in my pillow right now and crash. 

Where do I start....

 I am so behind in this blog-o-sphere that I don’t know where to start.

1.      I am so tired. I need to sleep one night, one night where I do nothing but sleep peacefully and dream of handsome men…..I want a good night sleep…no more of this 4 hour crap.

2.      My nephew might be on his way into this world. It is a crazy world to enter and I hope that he learns that he is surrounded by lots of love and people that will teach him all the good things in life…not to mention he will have the coolest aunt ever.

3.      Lightening storms are so peaceful. I want to sit on my porch all night and watch them. I hate storms, but they make me feel safe for some reason.

4.      I’m guilty of giving compliments to expect one back. I shouldn’t do that…its not proper and it doesn’t result in a great compliment at all.

5.      I miss the fall. I miss having a season where the leaves change color, where pumpkin is the favorite flavor, where laying on the couch in a full sweatsuit and covered in a blanket is necessity. I’m tired of this 100 degree weather…its shitty.

6.      I need a cuddle buddy before it gets really cold outside.

7.      I realized today that my work load is about to double come January but my pay isn’t going to. Someone is gonna pay for this….or else!

8.      I’ve decided I hate a desk job but somehow I return to a cubicle each day and smile. So I think I do smile.

9.      Going out of town tomorrow to see my favorite band in the world with some of my favorite people. I think this is just what the doctor ordered.

10.   Living alone isn’t easy. I learn this when I answer myself.

11.   Feeding a 4 year old chocolate at 9 p.m. doesn’t make him sleepy. It makes for an aunt to have no patience.

12.   I have enough love to share. I’m ready to find do that with someone worthy.

13.   Sometimes you have to follow your heart…or maybe follow your head…or maybe let them fight and whoever walks away standing wins. I hope its my heart……

14.   I wish I had more money to buy healthy food. I know that so many people say its possible to eat healthy on a budget but I want to be able to buy so many fresh veggies and yummy crap that looks good in recipies I find on the internet. Wishful thinking.

15.   I’m about to take on a second job. I’m not challenged right now in life and I need it. I need an atmosphere where I talk to a lot of people, work under pressure and make money. OTB here I come again…ughh! It better be worth it.

16.   Next post I promise will have lots o’ pictures. I swear.

17.   I need more motivation when it comes to every day things. I wish I really didn’t put them off.

18.   October goal: Don’t have any bad thoughs! HAha!

Im such a tease ;)

Sheer craziness has ensued the past week or so. Okay so maybe I just haven't taken the time to blog. I admit I have been in the wrong, but seriously people...come on!!!.....I was on vacation calm down! I'm teasing you with a short one right now with much more to come later.

P.S.- As you can see the whole Fashionista Challenge has come to a hault. I decided I just don't have the energy to keep up with it. So blah...one more mission failed. But I am okay with it. I still know that I can go a whole month without wearing the same clothes, but I am lucky enough to be able to keep up with this blog, let alone a challenge. Woah....my mind was about to explode! And honestly I don;t give a shit!

Crap on top of crap

One of my favorite bloggers Running off the Reeces does a thing every Friday (15 thing friday) where she goes off about anything....so I decided to steal that and make my own list titled "Crap on top of crap" and summ up the top 10 things on my mind right now with you. Bamm...don't be jealous.....

1. I love comfort food. The kind of food that  makes your ass bigger as you are eating it . tonight i ventured out and made chicken fried steak, mashed potatoes, corn and covered it all with cream gravy (get your head out of the gutter).

Look its so big it makes a heart

2. I got my nails done tonight for the wedding I am going to this weekend. I got tips and yes my nails are black. So suck it everyone that thinks it is goth. Get with it people, black is totally in style and makes my fingers look longer!

3. I actually went to a public library today and checked out some books. I guess this is my attempt to save money and still enjoy reading. Laaaammmmeeeeooo I know! Funny thing is that I had a library fee of $2.40 from 6 years ago,. Bwahaha! Now that is funny...i handed over the money and took a little James Patterson home with me. Ah thank you!

4. So much was on TV tonight and it was the first night I really really wanted a DVR! Damn you Time Warner Cable, why do you have to charge an extra $15 a month for a DVR?!? I settled on the Sing off but I had to forgo Dancing with the Stars (with the first tranny and gay guy!). Hulu here I come tommorrow. Not to mention roast of charlie sheen is on tonight too! Woo hoo!

5. I want more money to go shopping. Not to pay off bills, or save but to be able to buy a fabulous wardrobe! So new pair of shoes, you will be mine and I won't have to wipe away my tears while I leave the store anymore. The one thing that sucks though is that  is going to require working more hours. Bring on the part time job!

6. I need to be packing right now but the roast of charlie sheen is on. How can I miss this. Winning!!!!!!



 7. My apartment complex finally opened up thier workout center. I thoght to myelf "i think i'll venture over there to check it out".....or maybe i'll lay here on my couch some more, drink the rest of my beer and gaze at Charlie Sheen!

8. Do you ever want to tell someone "leave me alone"! Like seriously don't talk to me...don't look at me, dont even think about me. I just want you to walk away right now, think about talking to someone else and know that when I tell you this, i'm really not being a bitch just myself.  If you don't like it suck it! Go find someone who cares, someone who actually wants to hear you talk and someone who gives a rats ass (that one was really mean).

9. I need more art in my apartment. But I am scared to put anything up because I get tired of things really easily. I want something NY inspired to put up......so go find me something.....and buy it for me! okay thanks.

10. Alright i'm lost...i don't have a 10th things. I'll be honest this roast is funny and I can focus right now. It will get better...for your sake I hope!

Fashionista Challenge: Day 6

Check out the snazzy new phone cover, just sayin!

Woke up this morning feeling like crap. It rained heavinly last night and I think mother nature freaked out and decided to take it out against me. My eyes hurt like hell (hence the glasses look today) and my body is sore as hell. I just wanted tot ell her to take that shit elsewhere! I don't have time to deal with it right now. Today's outfit was based upon the glasses or the fact that i wanted to look like a librarian..or maybe not. Either way I havent worn the same thing yet! Maybe perhaps I also feel like crap because someone forced me to stay at the bar I was at when the storm hit and what else are you going to do at a bar but consume vodka  <------ the only bevy that doesn't kill me. 5 drinks later I think I was okay to drive home! (in a span of 2 hours of course).

Over all successfull weekend.........both my football teams won....Tony Romo still sucks though....at leat one of my teams has a very hot quarterback...... i <3 mark sanchez for life!

 



Goooooaaaaaallllllll....or not

I have a special place in my heart for FC Dallas.....well that and $2 beers for the majority of the game! Saturday we concluded the birthday extravaganza with a little soccah action at the FC Dallas game. We did have seats in the stands but decided to stay on the stage where the brewskey's were flowing freely, and there was fun people around to entertain us!

Nice seats....eh?

I know I know.......I should have taken more photos of us gals together...but I am horrible at photos. It was a perfect night, except for the fact that our FCD boys forgot to score a goal. However, they did do an amazing tribute to a retired player/broadcaster voice/ex-fellow employee Bobby Rhine. He tragically dies from a massive heartattack at the age of 35 recently and has left behind two beautiful boys and a wife. He was an amazing person and I feel so blessed to have worked with him. Cheers bobby!

Super sized jersey one of the supporters groups made in tribute to Bobby Rhine. BR19 Foreva!

Ain't nothing a little wine can't cure!

Friday began the Weekend Extravaganza that was created to celebrate my friend Jackie's birthday. She actually take a entire week out of the year to celebrate her birthday...apparently god made her "special" and she gets to do this......we just call her odd. After work we ventured out to Grapefest....a lovely festival celebrating the glorious creation of Wine. We battled the wind, the downpur of rain, the lovely look of being drenched in the rain, because who thinks about umbrellas when you have wine on the brain!

Me and some lovely ladies

Regardless of the rain storm we faced, the wine tasting was awesome. For 2 hours straight we sampled wines from about 50+ vineyards and even managed to engulf some cheese/crackers in there somewhere. It was fun, we were wet and very excited to get home to change into some warm clothes. I even managed to drink another bottle of wine by the time I got home. I however was the party pooper of the evening and went to bed by 11:45 p.m. Party animal I am. I woke up and rememebr I even got a soulvenoir from the wine tasting...oh joy!

This was the amount of wine you got from each sample....times this by 100 and thats how much wine I got!

Fashionista Challenge : Day 4 & 5

For the record I was home sick on Thursday so I didn't have to put forth any effort into my outfit...but I will say that I rocked a hoodie and shorts very nicely for the day!


Friday's ensemble:

Yes boys and girls it was "casual friday" in which I normally wear a pair of jeans and some kind of top to work. But on this lovely day I was heading out to work for a freind's birthday that evening so I had to spruce it up a bit. This is me sprucing it up a bit....don't laugh.

Fashionista Challenge: Day 3

Day three...not so bad. Woke up this morning, got dressed, went to the Dr and got sent right back home again. Grrrr...I actually wanted to go to work today! Well needless to say apparently strept throat is contagious hence the reason I am now sitting on my couch, watching re-runs of the Real Housewives of New Jersey and wearing a sweatshirt! I think I will probably clean a bit, run some errands and then keep a shopping date with my momma. Contageous my ass....I have crap to do. I'll start when I wake up from my nap!

Fashionista Challenge: Day 2

Day two and still hating my pictures. But on a side note, I do have different hair! Holla! I like to call this "lazy hair". I'm still in a food coma from the Italian Feast I made last night for dinner for some friends and the idean of putting forth effort into blow drying, flat ironing my hair just made me want to go back to sleep.

Realization of today: I am alone. Not entirely alone. I mean I do have my friends, my family and my co-workers, but for the first time in my life I am single, alone, no man and I have NO IDEA WHAT THE HELL I AM DOING! I think I need to invest in a little book called "The Rules" . It was recommended to me by one of my friends and it is apparently the chick's guide to dating, the in's and out's, the do's and dont's. Maybe when I am done reading it the book will magically change into a hot man who has an amazing job, nice vehicle, loves his momma and can't take his eyes off of me. Now that ladies and gentleman is a BOOK! Shit, that is an investment. Let me know when someone publishes that!  

Now onto conquor the world! but first, just to get past Tuesday!

Fashionista Challenge: Day 1

Day Late: September 12, 2011

First day of Fashionista Challenge (going 1 month without wearing the same thing to work) and I already hate pictures of myself. I want to puke at the sight of how LARGE I look. Ughh. I have a feeling this is going to be a self realizationg of a couple of things:

1. I dress like a slob
2. I honestly do needs to loose ALOT of weight
3. My bathroom is boring white...bleh
4. My fingers look like chubby little sausages
5. I need a manicure..bad...can I have some money?!?

Either way something will come out of this "challenge". I am bound and determined.

I bleed green......

Well to sum up my weekend I have one word.......you think i'm gonna say fabulous right....wrong. It was BORING!!!!!! Well not all of it. I honestly think that when you have a boring weekend it causes you to fully appreciate the simple things in life. Like laying on your couch watching TV until  you can't possibly keep your eyes open, which just so happens to be 1 a.m.! Yeah that was my night saturday evening after a fabulous dinner with my mother at a cute little restaurant. I think the ric food they served got the best of me but I have to admit that it tasted AH-mazing going down the ol trap...and it helped that I didn't have to fork over any mulah for the din-din. Score! Double score because I had good company enjoying this feast! Friday night we won't talk about, just a night filled with blashemy and doesn't deserve a mention on this ol blog. Sunday was my glory day........Soccah (I always manage to want to use my non existant Maine accent when saying words ening in 'er) Soccer...my heaven on earth...and a night spent with my brother, his rowdy friends (second brothers to me) and this gorgeous piece of meat:



She can go away....very far away..and stop looking at my man! Grrrr

Okay, so maybe that is not how all of you picture Mark Sanchez, but as far as I am concerned this is the only way that he needs to look ever. Not to mention he won the first official game of the season, and he beat the hometown Cowboys. And I like to think that he knows who I am and totally wants to have babies with me......am I pushing it too far?!?

You smile cuz you know your gorgeous

Thats right....we are number 1 Markeeeeee!

Okay, one more to make you smile!



 Football, beer, food and friends...good Sunday to me.

Oh the insanity........

So I got to the gym everynight...who am I kidding...I go about 3-4 times a week. So why..oh why do I feel the need to go work my ass off at the gym and then come home to shove my face full of food? I mean I should be getting home and want to do nothing more than lie on the floor and pass the hell out. But no, for some reason, I couldn't stop thinking about food all through out spinn class. "What am I going to make for dinner tonight? Is it going to be good? What can I eat that will make my ass grow"? yeah these are all those great thought strolling through my head while I am peddling my way to never, never land. Someone smack me. Hard...so hard I fall off the bike. thank you, thank you so much. Thought maybe I could wrap it up with a little "catch up with Dianna list":

- Boys certainly show their age when they open their mouths. Someone needs to teach them at a younger age, if you talk to a women like she is a lady, she will treat you like a lady should. If you open your mouth and stupid rolls out, well she might just smack you across your face. and laugh at you....

-i have taken on the challenge of not wearing the same outfit to work over the duration of a month. I'm going to take photos each day and log it on my blog. don't ask me why i am doing this..i have no clue. It might be the product of me bragging at work how many clothes i actually own. which might possibly be embarrassing. so i put myself up to this challenge. maybe it will force me to explore my fashionista side. or it will prove to me that i really do have more shit.

-someone asked me earlier today "are you going to watch the debate tonight on tv?"...huh there is a debate on tv?!? I have never been one to get involved in politics. I tell myself it is because all the platforms and beliefs of the candidates is quite confusing. I never talk politics with anyone either because the minute I open my mouth i know nonsense will come plowing out. and who wants to look stupid?

-apparently i decided to pic the apartment complex located right next to the massive highway they are currently building because i am a DUMB ASS! 5 a.m. turns out like this "hey juan...turn that damn backhoe off. this hoe is still trying to sleep"! Damn you!

-I graced my uber cute neighbor again this morning with my presence. I even managed to pry my lips apart and say "hi"! Maybe tomorrow i'll make eye contact. Hey im growing up! Knowing me though i'll be the one sliding down the stairs on my ass and knock him over. I am sure to get a date after that

-The world lost a great soul this past week and the very young age of 35. He was amazing, touched everyone's hearts and influenced the game of soccer in so many ways. His spirit will live on. RIP Bobby Rhine. Thanks for the advice, the stories and the passion.

-Best part about living alone.....my clothes are on the floor and they have been there for a few days. Suck it.

-I think every work place should have a scream room. A small sound proof room where anyone can do during the day and scream as loud as they could. Today I could have used a scream castle..yes that large. today was major suckage.

-I'm sad my bestfriend decided to not drink for awhile. Don't get me wrong...I should be doing this too..but I might just faint if I don't have at least one or two drink every day...I mean every now and then. God i'm a lush.

Tonight another night at home...TV..which is great because I can never get enough of it...and making my bed, because apparently I have to have sheets on it to sleep. Maybe i'll just sleep on the couch tonight!

Take me out to the ball game……

A refreshing night at the Texas Rangers ball game with some of my favorite ladies. Jacky, Tera and Heidi make me laugh so much. On the ride over there (which just so happened to take a bit…an ass load….longer than what we would like. A special thank you to all those idiots out there who fail to use their traffic signals)…I realized how much these ladies make me laugh and how we could seriously write a book of all of our quotes and quirky saying. I think you would buy one and then laugh your arse off. Just saying! We had a blast.

Tera, Heidi and Jackie...don't think she wanted her photo taken..

 Started the night off right like any true lady would……

it;s so sweet once it hits your lips

While glaring and dreaming about ripping all the clothes off the gorgeous players from our lovely seats.

If only they were closer

Needless to say it was a wonderful evening had by all. A cute little 4 year old (shoutout Lindsey from Haslett) was at the game with her family. She just happened to sit right in front of us and shared her cotton candy with us. By the way, nothing classier than having a beer in one hand and a glob of cotton candy in another. Classic! She was just about the cutest thing ever and seriously talked my ear off the entire game. She also commented on the likeable-ness of the “cute” players. I think I have myself convinced that I am the “cool aunt” or “cool older friend” who teaches little kids bad things! Well not bad things but I honestly think sometimes you should talk to them like an adult. Its hilarious half the time and quite enjoyable (you should try it). Nothing like a 4 year old blurting out “is farting like diarrhea”?  Bwahahaha! True fun times had by all and I suppose we shall have another fun filled evening at the ball park. Maybe I can convince another little kid to go buy me a beer this time.

My day is so far from over and while I am soooo excited about going to Corpus Christi this holiday weekend, I am dreading the drive down there. 7-8 hours in a car with a numerous amount of red bull, Gatorade and who knows how much blaring music I am about to endure. Luckily I have a friend hoping a ride to the Austin area so I’ll have some company for about 3hrs of the drive. Regardless oh how long it takes, the trips are always well worth it. The hangovers are not!

Someone please stop me

I inhaled an entire box of these goodies at lunch time.

Ask my why when I made my lovely lunch worthy trip to Walmart I was atttracted to these little guys. They are the devil.....and I worship any gummy fruit candy. Why god! Whyyyyyyyy!

Thursday…oh Thursday……

I decided last night that life is what you make of it. Take me for example…..I’m not the best dresser in the world but I try. I mean I wake up each morning thinking about what fabulous outfit I can put together to only manage to have it on and completely hate it. Which turns into me going back to one of my “safe” outfit choices that everyone has seen a million times. But I try….regardless of what you think I have taken the stance that I believe I have descent style choices and no one is going to rain on my fashionista parade (but advice is welcomed)! And another thing I just recently moved into an apartment all by myself. The first two weeks I forced myself to stay up very…VERY late each night so that by the time I was ready to crash, I couldn’t keep my eyes out. For some reason this convinced me that since I was so tired I couldn’t hear some stranger trying to break in my apartment to come and eat all the fabulous food I have recently cooked! (I mean come on now doesn’t this look ahhh-mazing!)

Anyways I could come home and be completely depressed that no one answers my “honey I’m home” greeting, or be mad when I have no one to pick up after me, but I am not. I am learning to embrace being alone and frankly (I don’t give a damn…..classic gone with the Wind) I kinda like my alone time. I honestly don’t get anything done during that time, but I still like it! I know I’ll probably blog about this time and time again but to be honest this is a huge step and change in my life. This is the first time I have done something for myself and it rocks! Woo hoo! Suck it haters! I know it sounds like I have never lived before, but I am a firm believer that you happen to experience different things through out different parts of your life. So what if I am a little slow in the process! I like to think that I just happen to tackle things with a more mature thought process. That still doesn’t mean I know what I am doing!

Tonight however the ladies take it to the ballpark to watch our beloved Texas Rangers beat some Tampa Bay ray arse! Woo hoo! I’m sure how much of the game will be spent watching the actual plays or how much of the time we will spend talking about which ass looks better in what pants. I mean how can you go wrong looking at this:

Oh Ian I love you so

And this:

Oh you pointing at me?



And of course this:

(hey biatch...he's waving at me!!)

I personally hope that they opt for the second choice uniform but I doubt it is camera ready:

This is what I need to wake up to every single morning



I’m already thinking about the most gross, calorie induced, cheesy fabulous food item I can eat. You know the thing that the minute you take a bite of it your cholesterol slaps you in the face and tells your ass to grow a few more inches! Oh yeah…can’t wait! I think I might forgo the cold beer for something like that…….who am I kidding! I’ll have both and starve for the remainder of the weekend. Great plan Dianna, great plan! So here’s to a night full of boys, beers and brats!

(Heaven, I'm in heaven)



I keep spinning But I don't go anywhere.....

Tonight I came close to death...AKA Spin Class. Okay I can't cry that much. I have always wanted to take a class and see what it is all about, so tonight my bestfriend dragged me willingly into one. I lasted 30 minutes.Next goal...last 31 minutes! I don't think it would have been soo bad if I didn't play a 90 minute game yesterday in the mist of 100+ degree weather, throwing up on the field. Oh yeah boys...now that is some sexiness right there! Needless to say by the time I got home I finally gained feeling back in my ass and I crawled up to my second floor apartment. Its times like this I wish they installed an elevator.....get right on that office peeps...mmmmkay thanks!

 Well all the excitment and joy from the spin class gave the energy that I came home and made a healthy dinner...Chicken Alfredo (diet people...suck it). I would have taken a photo but I engulfed it and managed to do the dishes to get it all cleaned up. Now it's time to sit my ass on the couch and watch as much reality TV that I can possibly handle. Boooyah! What an exciting night I had!

P.S.- Goal this week....write longer blog entries and take more photos. Lets see if I can cross this off my to do list.

Music...Music...and Crappy Stuff

Weekend full of a whole lotta nothing.....baby showers, stripper poles, Hooter's wings, curtains all wrapped up by staying up way to late to watch the VMA's. Might have to say this years were a bit disapointing......I'll explain more later. Till then sweet dreams with the hopes of tomorrow being a better day.

Give me a pillow…give me a bed….give me my dancing shoes

This week has seriously kicked my ass. I have not been to sleep this whole week one night prior to 11 p.m. Okay I normally don’t go to bed earlier than that anyways, but it would have been nice to get some type of sleep this week! Everyone asks if I stay up late because I’m scared of the creepy crawly noises in the apt I hear, but honestly no. I have been helping create this

Along with these lovely people:

The hardest working woman we know.....Momma-sita

The incubator LaLa

El Donito

My LITTLE (this makes me feel old) just bought a house and as you can see has a baby on the way. While I am so vey proud of him and all that he has accomplished, I now can thank him for making me feel like a complete looser! I rent, have no family, have a failed attempt at a marriage, and still sometimes feel like I am 21 years old trying to figure myself out. In the long run I cough it up to “its just not my time to shine”…and you know what , that is a-o-tay with me. It’s his turn and he deserves it. He has worked so hard over the past few years. I am one very proud older sister and I love being able to say that.

I hope this weekend is chill….little dancing…little drinking…little soccer…A LOT of sleeping oh and the daunting task of laundry…which is officially a pain in the ass when you don’t have your own washer and dryer. I was going to go sometime this week but someone stole my calendar and wrote all these fun things on there for me to do during the week. Damn them…..they should give me some of my sleep back. Actually going dancing tonight…here’s to hoping I don’t sweat my ass off and look like a fool. I know it will happen and it is so embarrassing. I want to hire someone to walk around with me carrying a personal fan. Not to mention we live in 100% HELL right now. That is what I like to call Texas Heat…well at least over 30 days of temps ricking close to 110 degrees. Someone shoot me! Actually someone shoot the meteorologists who can’t come up with a new forecast. I mean don’t you guys talk to god or anything and request something new….huh? I’m sick of it. I want to move back to the east coast. Just after that bitch Irene gets done pounding the coast (think of my peeps right about now). Well I love to dance, clubs on the other hand aren’t my social scene. Not to mention I’ve never met the caliber of guy I want to be with, in a club. I think I’m too busy looking past all the juiceheads and guiddo wanna be’s to see anyone else. But hey…Look at me….I’m going to a club….Woo-Hoo! (Positive panties are on). I’m gonna love it and you all are going to tell me to shut it.

2.5 hrs left at this generic, grey cube. Someone come save me…fast…quick…and bring a margarita! I'm off to dream about hot men, make a walmart list and find that damn money tree.

Intuition…….yeah I don’t have that

Life is a mystery. Why do they even call it life? They should just call it “you have no idea what the hell is going to happen so just enjoy the ride”. That might be a bit too long. Either way you have no way to predict what is going to happen in your life. That is why I say never say no. I mean, say no if your gonna get hurt, end up in jail, embarrass the hell out of yourself or end up in some random room passed out next to some stranger dressed as a clown holding a little dog (random I know but that is where my mind just took me…I swear I’m not on drugs). Never say no to going to a party, going out with friends, trying something new you have never done before or doing any single thing you ever wanted. While I’m on the kick of “sharing the wisdom of life” here are some more:

-family is number one in life…you didn’t choose them but they aren’t going anywhere

-before you make that call or text, take a minute and decide if it is the right thing to do

-always, always, give 110%....unless your spent and exhausted

-don’t over analyze things because 99% of the time what your making out to be a big deal, really was nothing to start with

-guys will never think like you, so don’t even try to think like a guy. What they give you, is what you get

-it always is what it seems….trust me.

-listen to your friends, they are probably right about most things and can see your situation a lot better

-love is a great thing…..when it is true love. Don’t say “I love you” to someone unless you really mean it.

-It always gets better with time.

-Live your life to make ONLY you happy. If your worried about hurting someone’s feelings, don’t worry about it. they get over it. I never heard anyone dying from a broken heart.

-learn from your mistakes. Don’t do the same thing twice if the first time around it didn’t work out. Then your just going to look like a complete dumbass running in circles.

-Tell a boy once in awhile that you think they are cute. Make the first move, I bet he might be as nervous as you are.

-Keep Facebook for the funny things. Make your friends laugh on there, not share how much you hate life, your relationship status or anything like that. Otherwise I will delete you.

-Say what you want. If someone gets offended, hand them a pair of headphones. Don’t go to sleep at night with a lot on your mind.

-Smile….trust me life doesn’t suck that much

For some reason all of my wisdom knowledge right now is about love, boys and what not. Maybe perhaps I have one on my mind…or two…..hehehe