Lost with no directions

Just when i think i have everything figured out, something comes along and messes it all up. i know that i am strong enought to get through all this, but how strong do i really have to be? i need a change. i need something to change. but what, when, how and why? i have officially decided that i need a manual for life. someone to tell me which direction i am suppose to go, which path to take, which road to travel down. i guess the defenition of life is "the journey to the end". wow...well it has been one hell of a journey thus far. i can say that i have experienced true love, true pain, true hurt and devistation....but my character is the path back to the top. i shall lean on friends, depend on family, love those that love me and remove those from my life that just don't give a fuck about me. im tired of being hurt, im tired of looking stupid, im tired of being defined by someone else. ya know what...I have more right now than you have ever had, i have accomplished more and i'll be damned if you bring me down. go hurt someone else...go bring them down...and in the long run when i hope you come around...i wont be  there to pick your ass up.