Little things I adore......

 “The easiest thing in the world to do is quit on something. Quitting takes zero effort. Quitting can even be justified with excuses and legitimate reasons at times. When someone quits at something they can even lie to themselves by saying that what they quit on wasn’t that important. To those people with that mentality this is what I have to say. If it was important enough to start, it is important enough to finish. Don’t quit. Hold on, cling to what is yours until your fingers cramp; and once your fingers cramp switch hands.”

thoughts of the day.......

I was on a lunch excursion at Target yesterday and picked up a simple braclet on sale that has a small silver quote on it: Love life. I got a compliment on it at spinn class and it really got me thinking that there is always something in life that you can love. Well I love:

- receiving coupons in the mail and actually using them on time to save money
-sweet text messages from a boy you get to see once you turn your phone back on
-cooking at home for me and knowing what I am having for lunch to next day...left overs!
-weekday happy hours with friends
-friends....all of them
-friends that live in far away places so that I have a fabulous excuse to go on a mini vacation to get some bestie time in
-having money in the bank
-shopping and using more than my savings account
-my nieces and newphews
-the new additions to our family...I love all 3 of them
-concerts outdoors with people I adore
-knowing that someone in this world loves me...no matter what
-nights out that I don't pay for
-wearing a new shirt out and getting complimeted on it
-getting my hair done and knowing I don't look homeless anymore
-taking my shoes off from a long hard day of work
-having someone tell me "you work too much"...just determination in my eyes
-having a new friend at work that makes me laugh every day and is someone i can confide in
-boys who make me smile by the smallest gesture
-country music....i have missed you but I am back now
-my apartment....i am happy to come home and am excited about new craft projects
- looking forward to thanksgiving
-thinking about my dad and knowing that he is smiling and is VERY proud of me
- having a great relationship with my little brother
- a nice cold beer right when you need it
- motivation to work out
- readily accessible news so that I don't feel left out of the loop of life

Ugghh there are so many more things that I could list and I'm sure I will again. I know that I love the fact that I can make this vlog as random as I want to and I don't mind it at all. I hope you like it!

Tombstone.....

" I don't have time to be proper...I want to live"......... (Tombstone)

November is for the Birds

I can't believe it is November already. I honestly want to sit in the corner and cry. Alright i'm not depressed but the fact that an entire year has almost passed again and I haven't accomplished anything doesn't make me want to jump up for joy. I guess you can say that I accomplished moving into an apartment on my own, securing and learning a new job, buying a new car, getting over the fact that I had my heart ripped out and smashed to pieces.....besides all of this "greatness" I experienced I still feel lonely and not whole. I honestly think it is because I spent so much of my time strapped to the hip of another person, that waking up in the morning to only face myself IS SCARY AS SHIT! Finding myself is a horrible journey. Its like you want someone to answer these questions:

-Where do I start?
-How long is this going to take?
-Why is this happening at the age of 26?
-Why do I feel like I'll never accomplish anything

Urrgggg..... I know what I have to do...and to be honest I have been doing it, some what. I just want to be 100% happy. I want to wake up in the morning excited about life not thinking about the next time it is that I can sleep...a good long sleep.

It has helped a bit that I have taken on a second job. My social life has been cut down into half of what it was, but onthe other hand I appreciate that it has made me be a stronger, working person. Now if all those young kids would just get the hell out of my way at work I could accomplish so much more. Or just bring me more money....that would certainly put a huge smile on my face. I need sleep, I need reassurance, I need someone to tell me that everything is going to be a-okay. I need a swift kick in the ass...and I am sure that I can easily find that some where.


Too bad work isn't helping right now either

New Motto......or thoughtful hoist

Yeah I stole this....so what....I like it.

A good one.....

Where oh where has my litle blog gone? Oh where , oh where can he be?

Things that have changed since I have checked in:

1. I have another nephew...Donald Perley Childs, Jr. on October 20h. I graced his presence when he was about 30 minutes old and it was love at first sight. I think I might just be his first crush...not in a Redneck/Arkansas kind of way but I at least know he is the love o my life (plus all my other fabulous nieces and nephews I can give back).

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Check me out biotches!

2. I have officially gone back to the dark hole, the dungeon, the place where you realize that you are soo old. Yes boys and girls, that is On the Border. The place where I worked throughout HS and college, the place where I learned to become an alcoholic, the place where I met all my bestfriends and made so many memories. Well im back...not because I really WANT to be, but because everytime I drive by an OLD NAVY it literally screams out my name and beggs me to by something. I have to feed my addiction and my savings account can no longer be my savior. So I work now 60+ hours a week to have a social life and shope more. Sue me, bite me! Eff off losers who wanna make fun of me.

3. I have a tendency to look like this everynow and then when I pout......

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Seriously I will slap you if you don't stop taking my picture

 Okay maybe im not as cute as her. Don't you want to just bite her face off she is so precious! I pout like this right now because I am sad that I don't get to see this gorgeous little gal and her seester everyday.

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Yes, I am a Diva and Princess all in one, it CAN happen

I am very thankful that I have a sister in-law that loves me enough to send me pictures everytime her and my brother get the girsl for the weekend. What has changed, you might ask, is that I get to smother these little faces with kisses during Thanksgiving because they are soming to visit. And that makes me sooooo happy I could poop!

4. I've gone gangsta.....

It's true. I'm straight thug. Thug like I drive a Pontiac G-6 , wear Texas Rangers gear and drink at a pool hall. Thats straight thugging in my book, right?!?

I got 5... thats about it. I know i'm horrible with blogging lately. Between my second job, taking care of my apt, being completely cool, shaving my legs, cleaning, work, acting like I give a shit about certain things, this gal has been a busy bee. I recently decided that I think i want to start running soon. I mean I do pay about $50 a month for a gym mebership I hardly use, so why not make myself feel a bit shittier by forgoing to gym membership and running outdoors. GENIUS!!! I need something that is going to give me a drive, purpose and stress reliever. I thought about beating people up but I've also heard they don;t let you shave your pits in jail....so I weighed my options and running won. Now I have to just figure out how to tie my sneakers and get my ass off the couch. Anybody wanna come over and pull me out of my sunken hole?!?

Sometimes I really just want to blog about completely random shit.Yet again I think if someone, for real, would read my random shit, they might want to commit me. I mean its hard to come up with a blog topic of the dya when in the real world everyone has a tendency to randomly think about crap. So there...tomorrow shall be a random blog. I'm preparing so keep yo mouf shut when you don't like it!